Conditioned not to rest

An ode to fear of the Manifestor rest cycle

I have been informed that I am in a rest cycle and experiencing the conditioning that being in a rest cycle is not societally acceptable. It’s been interesting to notice that I have energy, but no urge to create. Which is exactly why they call it a creative urge.

What I think isn’t clear enough is that if you do not have a creative urge driving you, you are in a rest cycle. What is not clear enough is that being in a rest cycle does not mean that you are constantly in a lying down position, or that you don’t have the energy to do anything in your life.

The rest cycle is an ebb and flow of lying down and restorative activity.

Lying down and nourishing the body.

Maybe I am not putting the whirring energy I have toward building out my new offer or launching my new podcast, even though these projects are steeping in the back of my mind. It may be the very fact that they are steeping in the back of my mind that makes me wonder what it says about me that I don’t have the urge to manifest them into reality.

I fear that the urge to create will never come again. I fear that if I don’t push myself or falsify sacral energy that I will sit, collecting dust, on my couch, in my bed, on my yoga mat, or on my front porch with a glass of non-alcoholic sparkling rose in my hand.

I fear that I am expending my energy at work and, because of this, I will never have the urge to birth my soul projects.

I fear how those who came to me for spiritual insight and personal healing may perceive my lack of action, availability, and presence.

This means that I am not in trust with my energetic cycle, with what the Universe has in store for me. This makes me… sad.

Yet, I suppose that this is a practice in and of itself. This is what it means to live in your spirituality. It’s allowing for there to be the quiet, low-key spaces and energetics that maintain your being without the constant pressure to evolve, grow, and build.

I don’t have the urge, so I don‘t take massive action. Instead, I allow the little moments of inspiration to be documented.

If it isn’t a yes, then it’s a no. That’s ok.

You don’t have to say yes to every invitation.

What’s meant for you will never miss you.

The urge, the timing, the opportunity, the YES, will find us all eventually.

It’s our job to honor where we are and nourish ourselves properly so that when those things arrive we are ready for them.

Human Design Notes

Manifestor

Splenic authority

Undefined root

Open head

I’m sure that I’m quad right comes into play here somewhere 😝